I am beginning to wonder if spring is really going to happen or not.
Raise your hand if this has felt like the longest winter?
Each winter; I am reminded of faith. We all have faith that spring is coming; because it always has.
God never lets us down.
Even here in PA, it snows, and yet there is still evidence that spring is around the corner.
Our family recently has had some very faith promoting experiences of our own.
Jonathan is wrapping up his fellowship here in PA.
That means it is time to pick a job, and finally settle in.
Who knew that would be the scariest part of this whole journey.
Who knew that moving to the Caribbean nine years ago with 3 suitcases would seem easier than choosing a job and location to settle in and raise our family?
Over the last several months, we have put a lot of faith in God while we made choices about a job and a location to settle in to.
My amazing, handsome, hunk of a doctor husband had several awesome jobs to choose from.
(this is Jonathan’s photo that is on his card at work. I just think he looks so handsome and professional)
Each job offer had something wonderful; yet each one lacking something.
Some had location, others had salary, and others had awesome opportunities.
None had all three.
It has been hard to make a decision.
They were all good choices, and sometimes it is hard to decide between things that are gray and gray. When I say gray I don’t mean dull. I just mean it hasn’t been black and white.
If it was black and white, it would be much easier.
In nine years, our path has been very much guided by God. He has had a hand in every place we have moved. (read more about that here.)
I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that we would be guided once again.
That is where the faith had to come in.
The faith that God knew where we would bloom.
As with most decisions in our home, we rely on prayer.
We took this particular decision to God; and he answered.
I have found that sometimes in my life there are answers that God answers with a simple, “it mattereth not to me.” Sometimes what God is saying is, “either choice is fine.”
In this particular decision, God had a specific answer.
This answer was not the answer that our family expected.
At times, we didn’t know if it was the answer that we wanted.
From other angles, it was exactly what we wanted.
For days and weeks, we went back to the Lord, saying are you sure?
Each time he answered and I am sure it was in a very tired voice that he responded, “Yes. I am sure.”
God has been patient.
Let me also tell you, I married an amazing man.
My faithful husband listened to God, and followed his answer.
Jonathan is giving up a lot. The other jobs had things to offer that the job we chose does not.
After 9 years of devoting your life to something; you are looking for the right job.
The job that offers everything you want.
He found that job, but it wasn’t the job he was guided to take.
Jonathan was very excited about that job; and has mourned the loss of it greatly.
It is hard to turn down something that you want.
Then he picks his head up, and he goes forward with faith; knowing that God has something awesome planned for him and our family.
Jonathan has always taken care of his family first, and this time has been no different.
I am so lucky to be married to a man that has enough faith to walk away from something he wants for something God wants for our family instead.
He loves us enough to take the job in the city that he knows is best for our family; not necessarily the job he thought he would end up with.
We both know that God has a plan for us.
I know that God has a great work for my husband to do, and that he has been called to heal people.
I also know that Jonathan won’t let God down.
I am thankful that I know and understand that faith is hard.
Having faith is like a long hard winter, but then the spring blossoms bloom.
Just like our family and my husband will in….
I love you J.