I had every intention of posting this yesterday. Then I got a phone call asking if we could show our house? I was totally shocked, our house had been listed on the MLS for only 10 hours. I promptly got up from my computer and did a little straightening. I have a feeling that this is my new life. My hours are no longer my own. They are the home buyers. Anyway… here it is…
What I have learned… one day late.
The reason I started posting what I have learned is because I have so many people in my life that touch me for good. I like to remember those things and be able to reflect on them.
This past year, I have been in a sort of funk. I have had a really hard time trying to figure out just what has affected me. I think it has been a combination of many things.
Just recently, I realized that part of my problem is that I have been living for what is coming next. I heard myself telling my mind, “just get through this, and then you get to do this.” I have not been enjoying my time just being mom and wife. I am always looking forward to whatever big thing might be happening on the weekend, or what trip we might take next.
It all started when we found out in the fall of 2011 that we would be moving to PA this summer. I started thinking about that change and thinking and thinking about it. I would say to myself over and over, “just one more year; and then we will move back to Utah.”
I have been living for the Utah. I have been dreaming about what my life will be like in Utah. I have pictured being able to ask my mom to run over and help me with the kids. I have imagined spending Sunday’s at my parents. I have thought about lunches with my sisters, and play-dates with cousins.
While all that dreaming was going on, I forgot to enjoy the Sunday’s in my own home. I forgot to stop and just be with my husband while we were paying for a babysitter. I missed out on lunches and play-dates with out AR friends. My thoughts have been consumed with what would come next.
My thoughts have also been consumed with our move, making sure our house would be ready to sell, packing it all up, and finding somewhere to live.
I am so thankful that I realized this. I can only imagine how my days would be in PA; how miserable would I have been.
I have always been one to “enjoy the journey.” In fact, that was my life’s theme while we lived on the island of Saba. How come I forgot to enjoy the journey now? I think I just lost site of what was really important.
I don’t want to waste away the time we have left here, and heaven forbid miss the experiences that happen in Pennsylvania.
My best friend recently shared this post about her families theme for the year. I had that on my mind one day while I was driving around. I happened to be listening to my new favorite album, “Wildflower”, by Lauren Alaina. A song called “The Middle” came on, and I began to really listen to the words.(check out the link I shared, it really is a cute montage that someone put together.)
As I was listening, I thought to myself this should be my theme for the year. So just like the Moes family has a theme for the year, I decided that I needed my own theme for the year. A little reminder to myself of what matters most in life. A reminder to live for each day.
My favorite part of the song says:
The day your born is just a start.
Your last breath is a question mark.
The story of your life is in the in between.
While I was driving around in the car, I had this a-ha moment.
I am in the in between.
I am in between everything. I am in between houses, and states to live in. I am in between doctors, dentists, and new places to eat. Nothing ever stays the same. It is time to start enjoying the in between, and living out my story.
The song actually told me how to live. It says:
Take each day and make it last
Because you turn around and the future is the past
Here and now is all we have
The beginning and the end mean so little
What matters most is what’s in the middle.
What’s in the middle for me?:
dinner with my family
dancing in the kitchen
movies with my husband
and finding the joy in all the little things I do to keep our home and family running.
Over the past month, I have put this plan in to action. I have watched my life change. I have felt true joy and happiness. I feel the urge to laugh almost all day. We are meant to find joy in this life.
As you can see I made a new printable.
I put them out in a frame so I am reminded of just how important it is to live in the middle.
I placed them next to this picture of our family laughing, giggling, and tickling together. Exactly what “the middle” means to me.
You can print your own also. Find it here.
… and because I know that Yellow doesn’t work for everyone there are six colors to choose from.
(In between print is 5x7, the middle print is 4x6)
Find the colored prints here.
I have a whole new outlook on life.
I hope you do too.
What is in the middle for you?
(p.s. take the time to listen to the song, it really is so powerful.)