Remember when I used to write about things I have learned. Well, it’s back. It is a good opportunity for me to reflect on the things that Heavenly Father teaches me. It is also a way to remember them when I go back and read my blog. I also hope it helps you.
What I have learned….
I knew that I wanted to start this new year off with a bang. I wanted to be better, and start with new goals. 2011 was hard on me. It was a year of learning many lessons. I spent the last week of 2011 reflecting on what I wanted to change. I couldn’t exactly pin point what had been bothering me over the last few months.
After talking it out with my bestie and my husband, I was able to put in to words what I was really feeling.
I have always been someone who takes on too much. I have a hard time saying no. On the flip side of the coin, I love doing all the things I say yes too. I have a hard time choosing what to give up. Much of the time I find my mind full of thoughts and lists. It is always way to full. Part of what I want help with is knowing what to do, and what not to do. In doing so, it would be a way to stop my mind from running all the time.
I compare it to a computer that has too many programs open. My computer is never been given the opportunity to shut down. I need to be able to run one program at a time, or at least minimize the program I am running so I can focus on another program; specifically my family. In the last year, I noticed my mind in one place when it should really be on my family. I want to be there listening or really understanding the words of the book I am reading instead of being off in never never land with my thoughts.
With the help of a good friend and her advice, I realized that I should take my problem to the Lord. Don’t get me wrong, I have prayed about my situation. However, my friend suggested that I take a different approach. I decided to give it a try.
I have ended each morning prayer with this response, “Heavenly Father please help me know what it is that you would have me do today.” Over the last year, I got so wrapped up in what it was I needed to accomplish for me, the kids, or anyone else. I forgot that I am supposed to be doing things that our pleasing unto the Lord.
In doing so, I have watched my days become easier. I have felt the promptings to say no to things that I just can’t do. I have felt subtle reminders to do things that I should be doing. I have been reminded to read my scriptures. I have found extra time in my day. I have been less forgetful, and more aware of what is going on around me. I have been more aware of the thoughts that pop in to my head, and which thoughts are important to respond to. I have acted upon phone calls that I feel are important. I see my mind becoming more like a computer that can minimize and shut down.
Along with my mind being clear, I enjoy the subtle reminders throughout that day that Heavenly Father knows me and loves me.
I am thankful to learn, grow, and become better.
….and because it’s always better with a picture.
Isn’t she pretty. I love being a mother. I love trying to be better for them.