I’m starting a new phase of life. For 12 years I have been mom to 4 little people. People that needed my help to dress, eat, sleep, and even go to the bathroom.
Now, all 4 little people are bigger people that don’t need help with those things anymore. My job as a mom is more emotional now, than it is physical.
My brain goes in to overdrive when my life and my job changes. I compare it to a job change or a position change that you go through at work. When that happens, it always takes time to figure out how to do the new job.
Along with the change of trying to understand “tweenagers”, and an almost teenager, my baby will soon be going to Kindergarten. Ahhh!!! When my kids were little, I thought this day would never come. It is almost here. In Utah, Kindergarten is only half day, so I feel that I’m easing in to it.
What will I do during the day, with all my children in school?
I’m actually not too worried about it.
I have plenty to do.
Like figuring out how to parent teenagers. I might be reading lots of parenting books while my kids are at school. With all the kids in school, I will now have more classrooms to volunteer in; which will take more of my time as well. I will have time to take lunch to my husband, and share an hour with him in the middle of our day. I hope to be able to serve a little more. I would also like to spend more time at the Logan Temple; which is an important building in our church. And of course, I will start crossing off some of the projects on my list. I might even get caught up on some scrapbooking.
I know that I have plenty to keep me busy. However, my kids are really worried about what I’ll do. The oldest two kids keep asking me if I’ll go back to work, or will I go back to school? They are worried that I will be bored. They are worried that I have dreams that I want to fulfill and accomplish. I do have dreams. I do have things that I would love to do.
So, I started thinking about my dreams the other day. You know what I realized?
I am living my dream.
Jex, you are my dream. I always wanted to be a mom to a cute chubby little baby boy, and then how surprised I was when I was given you as my first born. I am blessed.
Stella, I prayed for you, you are very much my dream. In fact, before I knew I was pregnant with you, I actually had a dream about you.
Isaac, I always wanted a sweet blue-eyed boy, with a passion for life. You are also my dream.
Tessa, I dreamed of a little girl that I could doll-up with piggy tails and bows. A little girl that would hold my hand, and had the prettiest smile. You are my dream.
I dreamed about having 4 kids; 2 boys and 2 girls. WOW!! That turned out well.
Jonathan, as a young girl, I always dreamed of marrying a handsome man, who loved me more than anything. I know you do. You give me so much love everyday. You have fulfilled one of my greatest dreams. As an added bonus, you are very handsome.
All five of you, complete the dreams of the young Andrea. You make me who I wanted to become; always a wife and a mother. When I was very much a “tweenager” and teenager myself, I often dreamed of what it would be like to be a wife and a mother. I never dreamed about being a graphic designer(which is what I would go back to school for), or dreamed about being a photographer.
Having a family is always what I dreamed about.
So.. sweet children who are worried about me. Thank you for making me think about my dreams.
It helped me realize I am already living them.
You are my dreams.
My dreams really have come true.